Only JoKingMan

Hey hey, Been a few days since I started this now, I decided to leave it a couple of days to let people get to grips with my new content online - Let it sink in a bit...  Anyway, it's been crazy busy with change for me! I've been one very emotional girl the last few weeks. A delayed reaction to my Dad's death - with having been "the strong one" to get all the practical stuff out the way etc. Sorting out my living situation. Wanting to find some structure to my life. Trying to remain calm to not flare a Fibromyalgia/M.E flare up. Anxiety attacks keeping me awake and prohibiting me from eating. It's been hectic! I guess a big thing that I hadn't realised I was actually so scared of before is change. But I've never had to tackle major life issues without Dad. Now, I have to. I've never had to deal with EVERYTHING changing at once. Now, I am. The biggest change other than adapting to life without Dad, is putting aside my differences with the woman who...

Now as I mentioned in the intro, January Blues, seems insanely high this year! Maybe its been a tough time for more people of late, or maybe people are just finally opening up about their thoughts and feelings rather than bottling it up! I know I'm struggling this year: - Pains not great with the cold weather, - I'm still grieving the loss of my Dad from September (which I know I've essentially delayed the grieving process as I was having to be strong and tackle every issue that arose straight after)  - Housing issues since Dad's passed - Feeling alone (even with having THE greatest friends, boyfriend and sister - that feeling still niggles at you!) - Money is always a worry - An issue I've never really had personal experience with, but have been riddled with since Dad passed, ANXIETY! I worry and panic about everything! All the time! So lets continue this anxiety chat, I realise I'm being very open online and I don't care! It's strangely thera...